Fractured to Wholeness - Finally Getting In Touch With My Feminine Side book & My Short Stories

  There came a point when I could no longer avoid the depths of my own void. It wasn’t something I chose at first—it was more like life pushed me to the edge, where there was no choice but to dive in. I felt like everything that once defined me was slipping away, and with it, any sense of control. It was like the ground beneath me disappeared, and I was falling into an abyss of uncertainty, fear, and darkness.But somewhere, in the midst of that descent, I knew something was shifting. I didn’t understand it at the time, but I wasn’t falling into a void—I was being pulled into one. It was a place where everything I thought I knew about myself was shattered, where all my attachments, my expectations, my stories about who I was, melted away. It was terrifying. I couldn’t see the bottom, couldn’t grasp anything solid to hold onto. It felt like I was losing myself. And yet, somewhere deep inside, I knew I had to let go. I had to surrender. Because in that darkness, in the silence, I wa...

  My Tell All Fractured to wholeness - Finally Getting In Touch With My Feminine Side Chapter one: The beginning of Domestic Abuse in my relationship  (Trigger Warning) Today’s subject, abuse. Abuse can show up in your life in anyway through any thing, anyone, and it’s most hurtful when it shows up in a, what’s suppose to be, loving partner. Growing up I dealt with different types of abuse, but none of that prepared me for the abuse that I was about to face in a relationship that lasted what would seem like centuries. The relationship started like any other, honeymoon stage, the catering, love bombing, It felt like authentic compassion. Little did I know that I was being prepped to see how much control he could have over my life. That’s what it felt like, I didn’t realize that I was slowly being deceived and manipulated. My kindness was taken for weakness. My partner sees every opportunity to slowly take control of my life. Sometimes he would pull away to make me chase him. Ot...

  Download just in! It’s time for unions to begin. A portion of the collective will come together with their perfect counterpart, higher level soulmate, twin flame, if they haven’t already. We are coming together because The Great Event is almost here, The Great Solar Flash. Now I won’t talk about the great event because that’s not the subject matter in this this conversation, but it can be looked up to well understand more of whats to come after the event. Now, those who put in the work and healed from the inside out, healed their wounds and trauma, those who did the shadow work, we are all coming out of this waiting period. We are coming out of this self isolating period, if you haven’t already. The cocoon that molded our being into this badass multidimensional god that we are! Don’t get me wrong, we are still going through a huge spiritual metamorphosis and we need our time to take care of our mind, body and soul at this time. Those who passed the twin flame journey test have no...

  During this special meditation my Arcturian star family visited me and told me to concentrate on the middle of my head. I stayed in that space of concentration for about a minute. After that minute went by I noticed that my crown chakra had opened, it felt as if it was lit up and shortly after I felt static throughout my whole head. My spirit family then communicated to me that no matter what words, sentences or visions came into my mind that I should ignore them. I stayed in this space for a minute or so, as well. I then found myself, my energetic body, in space. Spirit then instructed me to concentrate on the void of space, only. Picture yourself floating in the abyss, black all around, nothing as far as the eye can see. So that’s what I did, I kept envisioning myself, my consciousness simply floating. I felt completely supported by my spirit family even though I could feel my heartbeat accelerating in my 3D body, I felt safe. Out of no where a hallway full of doors appeared. B...

  After sitting still for half an hour I decided to pull a few Star Seed Oracle cards, for guidance. I closed my eyes and sat with them for a while. They instantly took me for a ride, I found myself in space. In the middle of pitch black void there stood a solid platform with a portal door. After stepping on it my spirit family appeared all around me. The told me to make a wish and to imagine my perfect dream life, what did it look like, feel like, smell like? It was a little hard to concentrate considering I was in the middle of space! Still in shock mode, everything felt so real. I took one good look at my surroundings, took a deep breath and decided to speak out loud. I went over what made me happy and what would be best for my highest good. As all this is going on I can feel my crown chakra light up on my 3D body. Then more and more ideas poured in, describing my perfect world. A world full of love, forgiveness and gratitude. After I felt I got all the details out of the way I ...

During my much needed meditation I was guided and impelled to visit my inner child. This visit went a little different from my previous visits to her. When I visit my inner child it’s always at my childhood home. I also speak affirmations to her and comfort her as much as possible by telling her how safe she is, how it’s okay to be herself and have fun. This time I took that extra step and took her on an adventure instead of just telling her to have fun. My higher self showed up and guided me to heal my inner child in a very beautiful way that worked for me. I believe that everyone is powerful in their own way. I’m learning how stand in my own power and use my gifts to help and better myself and my family. So before I took my inner child on adventures i had planned for us, I decided to use healing, Universal light that comes through me from source, my star family, specifically my Arcturian family. I simply put my hand on her heart. I used the light to heal her trauma, her sadness, and ...

  After returning from a week long vacation, well spent, In the city I couldn’t be happier to be back home. You see, back home meant being around tall trees instead old, grey buildings, blue skies instead of fog. I couldn’t wait to walk around barefoot and feel the cold grass in between my toes. After a couple days of settling I decided to do just that! So I dragged my parent’s dog out into nature. I found a stream of water and decided to sit and enjoy the peaceful, sunny day. This is when I usually day dream and meditate. I ended up doing something different. I got a little closer to the stream and put my hands in the water, only my finger tips. Practicing Reiki has allowed me to tap into the energy of the universal flow so I had an idea to do just that with water. I wanted to see if I could feel the energy of the water and Mother Nature’s pulse. So I sat and closed my eyes not knowing what would pop in my head I decided to be opened minded. I then started counting my breaths, “Br...