When The Shadow Self Speaks

 After returning from a week long vacation, well spent, In the city I couldn’t be happier to be back home. You see, back home meant being around tall trees instead old, grey buildings, blue skies instead of fog. I couldn’t wait to walk around barefoot and feel the cold grass in between my toes. After a couple days of settling I decided to do just that! So I dragged my parent’s dog out into nature. I found a stream of water and decided to sit and enjoy the peaceful, sunny day. This is when I usually day dream and meditate. I ended up doing something different. I got a little closer to the stream and put my hands in the water, only my finger tips. Practicing Reiki has allowed me to tap into the energy of the universal flow so I had an idea to do just that with water. I wanted to see if I could feel the energy of the water and Mother Nature’s pulse. So I sat and closed my eyes not knowing what would pop in my head I decided to be opened minded. I then started counting my breaths, “Breath in for four seconds, hold for four seconds, and release for eight seconds.” I continued for another two breaths and then suddenly a shadow popped up. It was my shadow. He stood right in front me. Kindly asked me, “What are you doing?” To which I responded, “Sharing my light”. Shadow asked, “Why?” I said, “I want to”. Shadow then said something that took me off guard. He said, “She doesn’t need it, she doesn’t need you”. After not knowing how to react for a few seconds I then proceeded to go off on why it’s so important to help Mother Earth so that she can evolve and then about how I benefit from this by being grounded. As I’m writing this now it hit me! I have a habit of letting people steal my energy, when someone says something immoral because they don’t know any better I lose my shit! When I should simply stay quiet. Everyone is on their own path and unless someone asks me for my opinion I shouldn’t feed into someone’s ego. I also realized that my shadow needs to heal a little more, I need to stand in my own power and not allow people’s opinions to override what I know to be true. I guess shadow works never ends.

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